not beautiful

I don’t feel beautiful, I hate my hair, I am a fat woman who smokes too much – why the hell would anyone want to be with me anyways, I get it. I can’t imagine why anyone would think I was beautiful and think he was lucky to have me, I never really knew how…

scared

dont know where to start, we’ve been connecting via text and lunch with a mutual client (she was up to something today) kind of wish it had just me and you that had lunch and you are back to your normal self, the guy that I fell in love with, the guy I still deeply…

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music

this afternoon, I could have sworn I was listening to music, was singing the lyrics in my head then I realized there wasn’t any music playing, not on my phone, not on the computer. I haven’t talked to anyone all day except the cats and haven’t gone anywhere, so either I have completely and utterly…

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more

remember when we were in the kitchen trying to figure out how much CBD to use and we were laughing because neither one of us knew what to do. I wanted more of that, more of seeing you happy and laughing, making you laugh over random silly things. Or that time when you were sitting…