I’m happy that he has a new male friend to hang out with but I feel excluded now. I know that I encouraged my male friend to hang out with him because he needs friends but I didn’t realize that meant they would now be excluding me from hanging out. I wonder what is wrong with me that no one really wants to hang out with me. So now this happy bro couple is hanging out and having fun and I’m sitting here alone again. yeah me 🙁 when shit backfires, my male friend even asked me if it was…
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he asked what did I want and why was he so special to you? the simple answer: he felt like home the long answer: we could sit in a room together and work or do our own thing and not talk, that’s rare when you feel comfortable with someone to sit in silence. We have a lot of the same quirks and sense of humor. We have similar hobbies, although we both work a lot so rarely have time for them. He was the first person I’d ever met that got “Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons for…
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I have to keep reminding myself that you’re never coming back into my life 🙁 . That you at some point decided that you were no longer my friend, maybe I scared you, wouldn’t be the first person to walk away from me, probably won’t be the last. I tried to grow my hair out thinking maybe you wanted a woman with long hair but you know what, I can not stand that in between stage of growing my hair out, I feel like a troll doll, so I shaved it again tonight because what the fuck is wrong with me…
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I wish you had trusted me enough to meet your cats
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the first time we went out to lunch alone, this funny handsome man was sitting across from me and I was nervous because I wasn’t sure what to expect and I didn’t want to seem weird but I absolutely love lots of butter on my bread and then you took the packet of butter and spread the whole thing on a slice of bread and I thought to myself, omg, he’s just like me. Just be yourself, stop pretending you are something you are not, use all the butter and put in on a slice of bread. The more we…
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guess it was too much to ask the universe to have someone in my life that genuinely likes me for me and just enjoys my company and wants absolutely nothing from me except my friendship to just stay. be that rock for me, someone I could lean on and that could lean on me too, someone to grow with, someone to love and care for one another like she wanted. I realize that I’m writing this all to you because maybe someday you will read it and stay this time it was really nice to have that kind of friendship…
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I think I might have fucked up and pushed him away again. The day he yelled at me and then subsequently fired me, what I didn’t hear or understand that what he really needed was for me to listen and understand what he was saying, that he was trying to open up his heart, be vulnerable and he was testing if he was safe with me, that I could handle him in any situation. But because of my history of being abused, at the first signs of someone reacting by yelling and getting angry with me, my instinct is too…
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We just want connection, true intimate connection, with someone that really sees us for us. Not intimate as in sex but true emotional intimacy, someone to share our secrets, desires and feelings with. Someone that knows that you prefer a quarter pounder over a big mac. Someone that knows your coffee order and what kind of crescent you like. Someone that knows your favorite wine or what kind of salad you like. Someone that knows your hobbies and encourages you to take more time to do them because they make you happy. Someone that is protective and supports you no…