Excluded

I’m happy that he has a new male friend to hang out with but I feel excluded now. I know that I encouraged my male friend to hang out with him because he needs friends but I didn’t realize that meant they would now be excluding me from hanging out. I wonder what is wrong with me that no one really wants to hang out with me. So now this happy bro couple is hanging out and having fun and I’m sitting here alone again. yeah me  🙁   when shit backfires, my male friend even asked me if it was ok to go out with him and I said yes, he needs friends.

And I do realize that their friendship came together because of me, so I’m still there somewhere in the mix but not there hanging out, not even invited, not happy and alone again. Still looking in from the outside, wondering why I don’t belong again. Depression is a bitch, I can’t get myself motivated to do anything, hence writing my get me out of this funk.

I’m a bad-ass woman who is worth being seen so why the hell do I feel so alone and rejected again?

I know, do other things, get a life, forget about them, do your own thing, get your head back into your work, they are the losers for not inviting you, yeah yeah, I know but I still feel rejected and hurt all over again.

Am I not fun to hang out with?