dont know where to start, we’ve been connecting via text and lunch with a mutual client (she was up to something today) kind of wish it had just me and you that had lunch and you are back to your normal self, the guy that I fell in love with, the guy I still deeply love and I’ve been wishing for these moments again with you for so long but honestly, I’m scared of letting you back into my life. I’m scared that you’ll just disappear again if it gets too overwhelming for you and break my heart all over again
damn you, if you’ve been thinking about me and finding random things like a welding helmet for me, why don’t you pick up the fucking phone and call me or send me a text, I don’t want to be the one that always reaches out to you, I need you to reach out to me first this time, I need you to act like you want to be in my life again. I need you to ask me out because I won’t chase you anymore, I’ve learned the hard way, that you didn’t care enough about me to not break my heart the first time and I’m scared you will do it again.